It Takes GUTS

Strawbabies,

A real beginning is never easy. It takes GUTS.

As I type this post, I have pondered on the thought of me not reaching out on my blog. Quitting my blog and giving up on what I love and do best and that is write.

Honestly, I was inspired by a 10 year old who believes I am the most perfect human. She also believes I can do anything I want to because hey I’m a grown up. A drive to conquer was planted by a 16 year old who diligently and consistently puts forth the effort to be the best. I then took a closer look at a 20 year old college student who decided to drop everything to create music and follow an unconventional path in college. I mean,  I have consistently spoke greatness, dreams, perfection, motivation. CONQUERING..

But I fell off the bandwagon and pushed my passengers forward.

They had a captain sort of from the shore because the captain was too afraid to enter the ship on the journey. I was just coaching do as I say and not what I do.

The real inspiration in this entire story is they trucked this entire journey with me and their love is what feeds my heart and drive to continue. Their love pushed me to get back on the ship and be the Captain.  Your crew is only as good as the captain and well let’s just say I believe a destination can be charted enroute. If the captain is a believer. The journey could be the perfect destination of many destinations.

I guess you can say Life happens and things fall by the waist side while others get put back on this shelf if things are not perfect.

It’s only a dream. RIGHT.

Not so Right,  but this has been my mind frame when I thought of this blog. It’s a dream I will eventually get back to it. The days became months and those months became years.

As I reflect on the sensitive subject of time, I am reminded that life is not forever. When would this blog become to past if I constantly put off and made excuses for not starting.

 Pinkstrawberry Events was skin and bones and almost nonexistent. When I decided that the light was still glowing not as strong but it was there. I just had to fuel the fire and nourish the fruit.

My biggest supporters reminded me constantly of the blog run and the life I had created with an open book journal.

When I begin this blog I was utterly excited and very enthusiastic about my new journey as a blogger.

I wanted a way to express myself without having a million and one journals or pieces of paper taking over my life

Initially, I wanted to be TRANSPARENT.

Yeah, right not until MY life happened.

It happened and I guess I can say my Transparent Journal📓 somehow went to the private setting.


I no longer wanted to discuss my life as I knew it. I wanted to pretend everything was still flourishing and that everything was as You knew it.

Blogging was definitely  not an option. How could I be sooo TRANSPARENT when things on social media seemed and looked so perfect.

At the time, my life was in total chaos. Everything crumbled as a domino effect took place.

See when I started blogging I somehow had this perfect life. American dream type life and then the Storm hit and BOY did it hit.

Over the years, blogging fell some place in my life and in the end it fell by the waist side to say the least.

My blog sort of  DIED.

The events started to become scarce because of my lack of RSVPing, the events started to feel like some type of facade.

Issues discussed were no longer my issues I was somewhat in a totally different place.

I was not operating in my life at a level of consistency or love.

I was in Survival Mode. I was no longer living or creating the life I dreamed  of I was tasked with
everyday real people issues. So I thought.

Real people I thought. To this point I was blessed and highly favored not to have any type of traumatic issue. I had a fairly blessed life to this point .

I didn’t know what it was to only be able to say GOD help me.

My prayer was three words GOD HELP ME.

I was following the motions and surviving literally hour to hour. Day to Day.

But with the recent events and just life PinkStrawberry Events somehow came full circle for me and at the end it withstood the test of time, trials, tribulations, celebrations as well as my disappointments.

I realized today that a dream is just that until you put forth the effort and dedication to create it into something that is REAL.

I also came up with the realization that my blog can not write itself there has to be an Author.



The Author to my blog was me.

I have pondered literally hours and I mean for real, for real. I have pondered for years on how I can start back blogging consistently.

How could I make this an eloquent piece of my life without offending and pleasing everyone while blogging?

How could I discuss real life issues, how dare me tell you the real truths of my perfect life.

How can I start back exactly where I left off?

The truth of the matter and the reality of things were I couldn’t start where I left off or could I please all of my dear Strawbabies.

I had to start.

How easy that sounded.

I had to start where I am right now.

The truth somehow shattered me because I literally had to start over if this thing was going to be authentic and REAL.

I had to do the groundwork over and somehow appeal to the new Strawbabies I picked up along the way.

So today, I decided to begin my New Journey.

My blog  has changed because hey I’ve changed.

I even added a couple new topics I wanted to explore with you.

I hope you enjoy my upcoming posts and adventures.

To be honest some topics might not be so great to discuss but Hey we will get through those hurdles together.

Life is not all about Rainbows 🌈 anyway. There will be valleys and storms ☔️ .

The real test and score with the triumphs are the manner in which you complete and survive.

Survival is no longer the only option for me but it is the option. My goal is to show you through blogging that real people experience real issues. I want to show you that your journey is just that yours. I want to show you that you can be the hero or heroine in your story.

See you on the flip side and on my Blog Journey.



❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️
Carlynn Thornton
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